First of all... I was brought back to this blog when something crazy happened. Yesterday, for the first time since going off bcps in March of '09... I got my period on my own. Was it because of the supermoon? I hope not. Otherwise it will be a long time before it happens again. But I was/still am shocked. That was the reason I did sooo much ivf. First place my head jumped to: will I never have to do ivf again? But that is ridic. My plan is to just see what happens. If I get my period a few more times, I'll then start checking to see if I'm ovulating. Part of me wants to jump right into to find out... but I think it's very valuable to not hyper-focus on it. Also, I don't want to. I did so much monitoring and medical crap for the past few years... I want to enjoy this time of ignoring it. Why am I ignoring it? Well, I guess you can say I buried the lead. Because after all the turmoil of ivf-land (if you've read my blog at all, you know there were some very low lows) and after an extremely rocky end of my pregnancy... my son was born on 11-30-11... at 29 weeks and 1 day. he spent 2 months in the nicu. It was scary, exhausting... but now he's 5 months old, healthy and thriving
Everyday I think about how lucky I am that it worked out. I am constantly reminded of things that used to knock the wind out of me with grief. I think about those of you who are still in the middle of it. I don't know what to say... if you are still pushing forward through infertility, please use me as motivation that there's hope. If it's annoying to do that, then never mind. I know when I was in it, even reading about ivf success was often depressing. So I honestly don't know what to say... except a million thanks for your support during the darkest time of my life. Maybe you will find something on this blog that will help you.