waiting

Egg retrieval June 28th.  16 eggs.  Fert report: 10 were mature, 7 fertilized.  Day 3: one dropped off - 4 8 cell excellent, 1 7 cell great, 1 6 cell okay.  Day 5 transfer: only 2 left: an 8 cell and a 10 cell.  RE said a good cycle for me (depressing-ish).  We got twin-nervous and did the cautious thing and only put back the 10 cell.  It was so depressing.  I was crying when I told the RE our decision.  To do all this and only have a 30% chance instead of 50-50.  Especially with my background it feels ridiculous to be conservative about how many we put back.  I feel like if this doesn't work, we'll do a frozen cycle for our 1 frozen.  If that doesn't work, I'll never transfer just one again.  I don't feel as upset now.  But I feel like the odds are way against us this time.  I don't feel any different physically... not that that means anything.

On the way to transfer I heard this Indigo Girls song i used to be into in high school and the chorus was "multiply life by the power of 2" and I thought it was maybe a sign to put 2 back.  But we didn't.  Hopefully the one we put in is still thriving.