retrieval pushed

...until Wed. or Thurs.  My follies are growing slowly.  If I avoid ohss, this is all worth it... but I'm in such limbo right now, that this delay feels like a bad thing. I'm just tired of feeling anxious, tired of my life revolving around this. Tired of planning for dates that don't happen.  

Today I feel extremely sad.  And it's not all about this cycle.  This cycle is going okay.  The whole thing is overwhelming and today is one of those days where it's hitting me.